Wrecked

Yesterday (Thursday) was another full day. Four more church visits and some time spent at one of the bible training centers. I have no idea how many kilometers we traveled – but it sure seemed like a lot. But here, travel takes a long time because of the bad roads, curvy, twisting streets and traffic.

When we got home last night I was wrecked. I was physically and emotionally drained. I awoke this morning and began thinking through all of the places we have been and all of the people we have met – and all of the things we have seen. It made me weep with the heaviness of it all. I know I have mentioned this before – but the need in this nation is indescribable. The more we travel and the more we see – the more it hits home.

I am a fixer. When I see a problem, my natural reaction is to find a solution. I brainstorm, make lists, and analyze options. But I can’t fix what is wrong here. That is what has caused the heaviness on my heart. A feeling of helplessness and being frustrated by that same helplessness.

Then, as I was lying in bed this morning feeling this way – God pushed in and reminded me of something. I am not here to fix anything. I am here to help with the proclamation of the gospel. Salvation in Christ is what this nation and its people need more than any tangible or material relief. The One True Hope is what they need most. Jesus is the solution to all of the problems. That doesn’t mean they will have material prosperity, big houses, and all of their problems go away – but hope and faith in Christ gives eternal rewards and treasures that nothing in this world can come close to.

I was grateful for that reminder. The reminder that God is the Creator and the Sustainer of all things. He gives hope where there is none; life when there is death; and comfort in the midst of suffering. The best thing I can do for the people in India who have captivated my heart – is to do the work God has called my husband and me to do here and to do it faithfully. Obedience is what he calls us to – the results are his to control, not mine. As hard as that is to accept and submit to, there is great comfort in it at the same time.

So as we prepare for another day, that is where our comfort is. Our focus is on Christ and Christ alone. He will guide and direct where we spend our resources, our time and our energy. His will WILL be accomplished for the glory of his name. All of this doesn’t excuse us from providing where we can for the physical needs of the believers and the lost here – far from it. But helping them find their way to eternal life in Christ is the best thing we can do for them.

I waited patiently for the Lord; he inclined to me and heard my cry. He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure. He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many will see and fear, and put their trust in the Lord. Psalm 40:1-3